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Hidden programming and negative influences create destructive habits.

I have always been fascinated with personal growth and self development and personal freedom, both financial and mental, has always been high on my agenda. Early in my career, I realized something important: if I wanted real freedom, I couldn’t stay trapped inside corporate culture. I didn’t want to spend my life building someone else’s future. I wanted to build my own.

Over the last 30 years I've started several businesses. However, during my entrepreneurial lifestyle I always felt that something was missing. I always seemed to hit a roadblock of some sort that made me feel stuck and not able to take myself to the next level. I’d get momentum… then stall. I’d make progress… then sabotage it. I couldn’t figure this out and got very frustrated at times. But I was curious of what was holding me back - keeping myself small. I was well aware of that a healthy lifestyle was important to my personal growth, yet why I did some bad habits puzzled me.

The Wake-Up Call

I got a real wakeup call when Covid happened. Nothing made sense to me anymore with what was happening. The media and governments were pushing an agenda that simply didn’t make sense to me. That’s when I realized the extensive mind control and brainwashing of the population that was going on. Repetition was the weapon used. Every major outlet used the same language, at the same time, over and over again. That repetition caught my attention. I started to really looking into this mind control operation and the mass psychosis that was happening and how repetition influences behavior. What I saw looked less like information—and more like programming. I made numerous healthy lifestyle changes. I stood out by not complying, not wearing a mask, not taking injections/poison etc. and experienced verbal abuse, even from people close to me. That period was uncomfortable, but it was also revealing.

Discovering My Own Self-Sabotage

However, during this process I learned to understand more about my own self-sabotage. I realized I’ve been a master self saboteur most of my adult life. I also understood that my behaviour wasn’t entirely my own. Like everyone else, I had been shaped by repetitive input—family beliefs, cultural norms, media messaging, and government narratives. That information doesn’t just pass through us. It gets absorbed. This is picked up by your subconscious that operates outside your conscious awareness, just like you don’t control your heart beat, food digestion etc. It works the same way. The subconscious mind can process 11 million pieces of data per second, while the conscious mind can only process 140 pieces of data per second.

That’s why repetition works. That’s why habits form automatically. That’s why “monkey see, monkey do” isn’t just a saying—it’s biology.

However, these programs are learned and therefore can be changed through reprogramming your mind as explained in this video.

What Self-Sabotage Really Is

Self-sabotage shows up as irrational or illogical behavior—things you do that don’t align with your goals or values—that people may not see themselves. Self sabotage can also come in many forms. However, what I learned is most important is to develop a healthy mind and body. Strong minds and bodies are harder to manipulate. Weak, exhausted, unhealthy ones are easier targets for mind control and manipulation. This insight was my starting point to deal with my own self-sabotage.

Rebuilding From the Ground Up

I joined the local gym and started to workout on a regular basis. One of the best decisions I have ever made in my life. I also became a lot more conscious about my eating habits. Junk food doesn’t exist in my life anymore and I now use mostly organic ingredients in my diet. Plenty of spring water (without fluoride) and no more alcohol and coffee. Alcohol and coffee are the most promoted poison out there, you see it everywhere (more on this in later posts). I was a big consumer of both alcohol and coffee in the past and this was a significant part of my self-sabotage.

Where I Am Now

A healthy mind and body are no longer goals—they’re my lifestyle. With a clearer mind and stronger body, I’m better equipped to face challenges, resist manipulation, and recognize when self-sabotaging patterns try to creep back in. Most importantly, I’m far more aware of how the mind control operations through constant repetitive content—from media, culture, and authority—shapes behavior beneath the surface.

The Takeaway

I want to leave you with the main take away from this post: Self-sabotage doesn’t start in your thoughts. It starts in your conditioning. Dealing with self-sabotage starts with a healthy mind and body first and foremost. Everything builds from there. Awareness is the first step. Choice is the second.

If you have questions about your own self-sabotage or patterns you’re trying to understand, feel free to reach out.